In the middle of math lecture a few days, I was going through Kaypee's ubergirly pink planner and I noticed how her calendar was filled up with lunch dates, movie dates and other social events. I also couldn't help but be amused by how she wrote down little things that made her day. When I looked at my worn out NUS planner, I couldn't help but be disappointed by the lack of entries that I would look back and smile ruefully on. See, the thing is, I used to write down all the little things that made me smile in my old 2006 Starbucks planner, but somewhere along the days of September to December, I stopped. As cheesy as it sounds, I couldn't find a reason to write anything down because I was too depressed, too lonely, and too exhausted for that. Those were the dark days -- the days I lost myself, the days I was taking away my food and eating them in front of my computer, the days I felt invisible and the days I wished I never came to Singapore. When I went home over the midsemester break, a lot of people asked me how things were in Singapore. My response? "It's..(insert slight hesitation) okay, I guess." Expressing my true feelings would've led to a longer conversation about it and that was the last thing I wanted. Giving a lukewarm response leads to a change in conversation.
A lot of things have changed this semester. Better friends, new activities ... sometimes, I can't help but wonder why these things didn't come out last semester. What changed really? My new outlook? Adjustment? I don't know. I guess the answer will come in due time. Right now, I just feel like that I'm actually living my life here and so I wanna share it to my old friends back home and friends here too.
Why Between Order and Randomness? I was going through titles of episodes of some TV shows and this one from One Tree Hill struck me in particular. I've got a lot of catching up to do with posting stuff here and I'll probably be doing that every time I'm bored, stuck in a rut or when I just plain feel like it. Some entries will be totally random. Most of them will probably not be chronological. For once, my OC-ness is not kicking in.
Oh and why is my blog address as such? Self-explanatory.
Every night is a story.
A lot of things have changed this semester. Better friends, new activities ... sometimes, I can't help but wonder why these things didn't come out last semester. What changed really? My new outlook? Adjustment? I don't know. I guess the answer will come in due time. Right now, I just feel like that I'm actually living my life here and so I wanna share it to my old friends back home and friends here too.
Why Between Order and Randomness? I was going through titles of episodes of some TV shows and this one from One Tree Hill struck me in particular. I've got a lot of catching up to do with posting stuff here and I'll probably be doing that every time I'm bored, stuck in a rut or when I just plain feel like it. Some entries will be totally random. Most of them will probably not be chronological. For once, my OC-ness is not kicking in.
Oh and why is my blog address as such? Self-explanatory.
Every night is a story.
4 comments:
yaaay!a new blog for your new life :) love it,so poetic. put a tagboard!!!
Waddya mean I DESTROYED the movie eh? U coulda chosen not to read it :P
Anyway, welcome to the era of blogging. Once u get hooked there's no turning back. And as always, it takes time to fit into a foreign country. All the best =)
and oh, i'd prefer u to tag my board instead of commenting hehe.. ;-) all the best for your "quest"!
Lol I've been blogging for the past 3 years. I just made a new one for...well, I just needed a change I guess :) Tag my board instead of commenting as well. :)
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